How are you?

What do you say when people ask how you are? I have seen several people this weekend that I haven't seen in a while--some I haven't seen at since before Jason's death. They always ask the same question--how are you guys doing? I keep saying, "We're ok." That's the best I can do right now. Will I ever be able to say, "We're good," or will spend the rest of my life just ok. I am having a difficult time believing that a month has gone by. Even though I have been told that the pain lessens, I can't imagine what it will be like to get beyond this pain. How can I ever find myself not thinking of Jason and feeling this weight of sadness and loss. We took flowers to the cemetery Saturday morning. I looked around the area and saw Heather Harwell, Kenny Cook, Bobbie Cook , and I thought of the other grieving parents. Is there a time-table that will tell me
when I will feel whole again, or does that never happen? Will I always feel like a part of me is missing? I keep thinking that the first year will be the most difficult--once we have done everything once, Thanksgiving, Christmas, his birthday, the anniversary of his death--it will be easier for us. I don't want to think that this pain will stay as fresh as it is now, but I can't imagine ever being truly happy without him.