Milestones

Today was another milestone in our journey. We had a family dinner at Cindy and Randy's for Gigi's, Carson's, and my birthday. Cody is home from a tour in Iraq, and we wanted to do this before he has to leave next week for San Diego. It is good to be together, but the reminders of the change in our family are everywhere. I know that Jason would not have been here, but it seems wrong for us to just go on without him. I wonder if I will ever be able to experience a family event without that back-of-the-mind constant memory of our grief. We have spent quite a bit of time together in the last six weeks, but today was different. I can't explain why.